For this week's flashback Friday, let's go back to the summer of 2010. It was a busy summer: we did lots of traveling and had many visitors from the USA, but what occupied my mind most of all during this period was whether or not we would be able to start a family.
In my very first blog post I mentioned that it took my husband and I 3 years to get pregnant with Nate, but I have never gone into the details. I didn't think it was important; I have my baby - he is strong and healthy and perfect, so what does it matter how he was conceived?
But as Nate grows bigger, the question inevitably on my mind is whether or not we will have another baby someday. And if we do, how long will it take us? Could I go through 8 rounds of fertility treatments again? Eight!?
This photo was taken a year-and-a-half into our journey to get pregnant. I was waiting to get an HSG test at the hospital. I was scared, but still calm enough to capture the moment on my camera. The photo reminds me what it felt like to go through fertility treatments, the nervous energy that always preceded each cycle. The disappointment when each month the tests come back negative.
In the end, after 4 medicated cycles and 3 IUI treatments, we got pregnant on our first round of IVF in October 2011. We also have 2 frozen embryos on ice at the clinic.
Now that baby Nate is here, I don't think I could put myself through so many treatments again; the desperation to start a family isn't there anymore since we already have one child. Even though I think a brother or sister for Nate would be great someday, if it doesn't happen I will be okay with that. Our family of 3 is wonderful and fulfilling and just right.
{This post is linking up to Flashback Friday over at Mummy Mishaps and The Real Housewife of Suffolk County}
goodness you did have to go through some heartache and disappointments to get your Nate didnt you? as they say, all good things come to those who wait. i have a friend who has been trying for about 9 years now to get pregnant and has been having fertility treatment and i heard a rumour she may at last be pregnant now - i am so happy for her as she always wanted to be a mummy. this reminds me of her plight. i hope that if you have a second it doesnt take as long x x
ReplyDeletethanks for linking up x x
Thanks for your comment. Yes, there was a lot of heartache and disappointment to get little Nathan into this world, but it was all completely worth it. I hope your friend is pregnant, 9 years is a horribly long time! x
DeleteMy gosh - thats so many rounds but I bet you are glad you were so determined now. I know from reading about someone elses journey that its not easy, physically or mentally so I'm really glad it ended so positively for you.
ReplyDeleteIt's definitely not easy - I think the mental side is harder than the physical side. I'm glad it ended positively too. It would be heart-breaking to go through so many treatments and for them to not work. I really feel for all the women who go through treatments with negative results. x
DeleteOh my goodness, sounds like you have been through so much, I can't imagine how hard that must have been for you. But like you say you have a healthy happy little boy now, which is lovely.
ReplyDeleteAwwww, thanks. Yes he is a very happy little boy - couldn't ask for anything more. x
DeleteMy goodness what a roller coaster you rode to get Nate! I dont think I have ever realised how lucky we were to get Joshua so easily. Your obviously a very strong women. I will keep my fingers crossed that one day you may get the brother or sister for Nate and hopefully 1st time x
ReplyDeleteThanks for your kind words. I never felt at the time that I was very strong, but looking back on it, I do think I must have been strong to keep trying again month after month x
DeleteIt's stories like these that remind me that pregnancy really is a miracle.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you went through so much to have Nate.
Thank you for linking up and sharing x
I love flashback Friday, thanks for hosting it. Yes, pregnancy really is a miracle isn't it? x
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